My Thoughts Aren't Safe

I'm not safe
I'm alone with my thoughts again

They haunt my brain
Keeping me from sleeping again
They cause all sorts of pain
Without ever leaving a mark

I'm not safe
I'm all alone with my thoughts again
As they run rampant through my brain

There has never been so perfect a torture
As the one I create for myself
Day after day
Night after night

I'm not safe
I'm alone with my thoughts again

They tell me things
Show me my inadequacies
Reveal my hidden flaws
Turn my success into ash
Dispairage me in my own safe place
Wreaking havoc on my emotions
They tell me I'm worthless,
useless
I don't deserve existance

I'm not safe
I'm alone with my thoughts again
Please make them be quiet

Before I try myself
Bottle of pills; a gun to the head
They'll be quiet when I'm dead

Oh God, this mind you gave me
It seems a little faulty
I pray so hard, can't you see?
Why are you ignoring me?
Have You
Given up on me too?
Am I that useless?

I'm not safe
I'm alone with my thoughts again

Fear planted like seeds
Only noise saves me
Turn up the music
When my ear bleeds
Then it's loud enough
It blocks out all the silence

I'm not safe again